Last night, I attended my first Reiki Share. I almost didn't go because I was in a bad mental state. I allowed my son Sammy to go with his father over the weekend and he came home with an ear infection because his father let him swim in a lake at his girlfriend's house. Sammy has malformed ear canals that has caused chronic ear infections and surgeries. I specifically told my exhusband to keep him out of water. I was angry at my exhusband for not caring enough to be a protective parent and then the old anger came through of how he just uses Sammy to get attention. "Look at me! I got a sick kid!"
The car ride to my Reiki Share meeting consisted of me trying to let go of the anger and the need to choke my exhusband so he could feel as bad as Sammy did with his ear oozing puss. My head and neck were pounding with tension.
As soon as I walked into the dim lite room full of incense and new age music, my anger subsided.
We talked and shared and I quickly felt light and free. I truly have great love for this wonderful group of people who have shown me so much in such a little amount of time.
In one exercise, we were instructed to close our eyes and put our hands in the prayer position. We were to slowly cup our hands so it looked like we were holding a ball and in that ball was nothing but great love.
As I filled my ball with love, I felt it with every cell in my body. I became nothing but love. As our instructor told us to open our eyes and send it to the person facing us, I was elated to see my person was "R", someone I had grown to love, respect and admire. As we looked at each other and sent each other our love, I found it almost overwhelming, it was so powerful. My body vibrated and I felt so safe and complete.
I left the meeting feeling light in my step. I stopped at a store to buy a vitamin water and I almost told the cashier I had love for her. I silently giggled at myself, but love is so much greater than anger.
I went home and shared with my boys what happened and I could feel the air of my home change because I changed it. I filled my home with love.
My instructor passed out a paper that had a prayer on it and she suggested that we should say it every morning, which I did first thing this morning. I want to share it and suggest you say it too...it is awesome!
Just for today, I will let go of Anger
Just for today, I will let go of Worry
Just for today, I will count My Many Blessings
Just for today, I will do My Work Honestly
Just for today, I will be Kind to Every Living Creature
Just for today, I will Love Myself
That's awesome Linda. Any kind of meditation is a great tool for letting the bad stuff slide off. I actually am/used to be a Reiki practitioner. A good friend of mine became a Master and I took one of her classes. It seems like it works but I didn't keep up on it and now I'm probably all clogged up. LOL.
ReplyDeleteAlso, blogs are a good way to vent and let things go too. There's something powerful about putting pen to paper (so to speak/type) as if writing it down makes it both more real and less of an issue all at once.
And in case you couldn't tell, this is Norm. :^)
Norm,
ReplyDeleteFor some reason it doesn't surprise me that your a Reiki Practioner ;)
I do need to vent more. For some reason I keep it bottled up because I'm afraid of spreading crap. But writing it down does help to see it objectively and let it go and let Source replace it with Love and Light.
Much love to you my friend...much love.